wisdom speaks in the bathroom

so i just came back from dear aecha ahjuma's house where i talked with jenna and sonia for over 3 hours and it was just a wonderful and honest iron sharpening iron experience. wow. such great fellowship.

anyway i went to go use their bathroom and while i was pooping, i was reading this bible that was wide open on top of a bunch of magazines. it was open at proverbs 8. the verses 12-36 really struck me though. i didn't even read all of it but the title of that section, "wisdom speaks" really caught my attention. the whole passage is in first person so it's like wisdom itself is talking. but man, it made me long for wisdom and for it to be strong and loud in my life.

Wisdom Speaks

¹²I am Wisdom --Common Sense is my closest friend;

I possess knowledge

and sound judgment.

¹³If you respect the LORD,

you will hate evil.

I hate pride and conceit

and deceitful lies.

¹⁴I am strong,

and I offer

sensible advice

and sound judgment.

¹⁵By my power kings govern,

and rulers make laws

that are fair.

¹⁶Every honest leader rules

with help from me.

¹⁷I love everyone who loves me,

and I will be found by all

who honestly search.

¹⁸I can make you rich and famous,

important and successful.

¹⁹What you receive from me

is more valuable

than even the finest gold

or the purest silver.

²⁰I always do what is right,

²¹and I give great riches

to everyone who loves me.

²²From the beginning,

I was with the LORD. I was there before he began

²³to create the earth.

At the very first,

the LORD gave life to me.

²⁴When I was born,

there were no oceans

or springs of water.

²⁵My birth was before

mountains were formed

or hills were put in place.

²⁶It happened long before God

had made the earth

or any of its fields

or even the dust.

²⁷I was there when the LORD

put the heavens in place

and stretched the sky

over the surface of the sea.

²⁸I was with him when he placed

the clouds in the sky

and created the springs

that fill the ocean.

²⁹I was there when he set

boundaries for the sea

to make it obey him,

and when he laid foundations

to support the earth.

³⁰I was right beside the LORD,

helping him plan and build. I made him happy each day,

and I was happy at his side.

³¹I was pleased with his world

and pleased with its people.

³²Pay attention, my children!

Follow my advice,

and you will be happy.

³³Listen carefully

to my instructions,

and you will be wise.

³⁴Come to my home each day

and listen to me.

You will find happiness.

³⁵By finding me, you find life,

and the LORD will be pleased

with you.

³⁶But if you don't find me,

you hurt only yourself,

and if you hate me,

you are in love with death.

omg, i just read the whole passage. so basically...wisdom is what made God create the heavens and earth and us. it was there the whole time. WE can have this wisdom through our Father! oh my stars...knock my socks off...

i was listening to a sermon by mark driscoll on biblical womanhood and at the end, he had his wife grace answer some questions that the congregation had. as she spoke, i was astounded by how she composed herself. i was listening to this through a podcast so it's not like i could see her but i could still tell from her voice and tone that she just had this godly confidence. and wisdom and godly knowledge was just exuuuding from her. i thought wow, there really are women out there like this. the hand of God is really upon her. there really are women who speak with boldness and confidence and conviction and truth. all women need that. God can really transform us in this way, to hold onto who we originally were supposed to be before all the corruption of sin.

Lord, send me, mold me, shape me, break me.