immeasurably more

so i just finished my week of clinicals. did 20 hrs in total over the past 2 days. i now see how nursing students feel intimidated, stupid, inadequate, etc, etc. my clinical prof can say things in a way that makes you feel really dumb and like you don't know anything. but man there certainly was a reason for how God molded me the way He did over these past few months. the love of Christ compels me to love her for who she is and i know that she doesn't mean to make us feel stupid but she doesn't mean to come across like that. and that she isn't judging us for our character, but it's all for learning's sake and she's correcting us in our role as future nurses. she was telling us last night to not bring ourselves down so much if we mess up on something, but to learn from it. what wise and humbling words!

my patient last night was so dear to my heart. she reminded me of my grandma in korea. they're both very chatty and short and have small round faces with chubby cheeks. my patient would talk on and on and on but i didn't get annoyed. sometimes i wasn't even following what she was saying because i would kinda zone out for a little bit. but i dunno, just being in her presence gave me comfort and i know the feeling was mutual too. she wished that she could bring me home to take care of her! and for some reason i felt that i wouldn't mind that either. :)

i woke up this morning with a hunger that wasn't physical. so i went to the word and found the verse that shook me to my core during harvest retreat:

now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work with us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! amen. --ephesians 3:20-21

immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine. sigh. come, Lord Jesus, come.

i have a day off today, thank You Lord! i plan on going running, cooking for some dear brothers, studying for my peds test next week, just living and knowing in God's love. :)