new every morning

i drove into the parking lot in front of b&n to have a post-dinner coffee date with my friend heesung and i saw this glorious spectacle as i pulled into a parking space that was the closest to the store which must have been specially saved for me. as i was drooling over the beauty (beautifulness is not a word, so i changed the word accordingly) of it all, i heard a sweet whisper: "My mercies are new every morning." i smiled as peace washed over my heart and took a snapshot of it on my phone.

22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.

--Lamentations 3:22-23 (ESV)

i dunno why but i've been in a blogging mood lately. lots have been going through my mind and God has been showing His love to me in a way that is fresh and new. it's been awhile since i've experienced this...maybe my heart has grown cold in a way lately. it leaves me thinking, "wow, why didn't i choose God first in the first place??" our hearts really are deceitful (Jer. 17:9). so i guess as a way to outlet this love and revelation that i've been receiving is through this blog. i could journal it (i just bought a new moleskine journal + weekly planner from barnes :D) but one difference between this blog and my private journal is that a blog is public. i'm not exactly sure who reads my blog but whoever does, i want them to know, believe, and take ownership in the love our Father has for all of us. even through my entries that are kinda pointless (like my very first one), may love flow through them! not because i'm some super holy mega christian. but because of the simple fact that God loves this ragamuffin (ref: The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning) and chooses to radiate His supernatural, beautiful, perfect, exquisite love though me. i'm nothing without Him. it's not about me. who is the source of all that is good and loving that comes forth from my lips?

so i just spent the past 20 minutes typing some more stuff to this entry, but i decided to save the rest for a later time because it's on a different topic. this blogging thing might just be a phase that'll die later and then restart again, but we'll see.

i have work tomorrow at 8:30am and i'm getting tired... i sure do hope that the white mocha i had at the b&n starbucks that i told them to make again because i forgot that i needed decaf actually was decaf and that they didn't forget to fix it (that's happened to me before) but i guess i'll find that out tonight :) ohh being so sensitive to caffeine has its ups and downs.